In the midst of a tragic act of terror, I can only remember how loved we are by our Savior!
His love never fails or gives up and He is right beside us in these times of despair!
My heart hurts for all affected by the events that took place in Boston
and I pray for healing and I lift all up to the Great Comforter!
I pray for the victims and their families,
and I also pray for the person behind such a horrific act,
that he will seek forgiveness from the Lord,
and that justice will be served.

Come, Lord Jesus!

A few weeks ago on a Tuesday afternoon I was moody…  I’d love to blame it on pregnancy but I don’t think that was the case, and certainly not the cause!  Lets just say that those close to you who do NOT have a relationship with the Lord can really peeve me.  Some don’t act their age and some don’t take any responsibility and are frivolous!  Nope, I’m not here to point the finger or call out any names…  Sorry!  :) I’m here to just say that God whispered to me in that moment that He is the GREAT ‘I AM!’  I was annoyed (for good reason) but had that tender nudge from my Heavenly Father that we all need forgiveness.  Forgive them, Father, they know not what they do!  Respectfully, I am just so grateful that I know and have a relationship with the One who saves, Who loves me unconditionally even when those around me have absolutely no love or regard for me at all!  He is jealous for me and His affections are STRONG!  I began to weep, fully embracing His all encompassing LOVE that I sooooo do NOT deserve.  But so do those that I was peeved at!  And they have no idea the LOVE waiting for them that they want nothing to do with!  They don’t get to know this amazing LOVE that I know named Jesus and they are headed in a horrible and destructive direction…  Which ultimately leads to death.  That pains me even more that those that I may not agree with or always like, but that I love so much and hold dear to my heart are not going to be with me in heaven one day.

And so things are started to seem trivial…  because the things of this world will pass away…  I am in this world but I am most certainly not of it.  I’m passing through here and my time here is short; my forever home is in Heaven, with my Father and I have the comfort of knowing that and it is engraved on my heart!  I can’t waste a precious moment being peeved knowing that Jesus dies a brutal death in my place.  I am lucky.  I am chosen.  I want to stand with my arms wide open, in awe and embracing the One who made us all!  Forgive me, Father.  I want to live a life worthy and pleasing to You!

I can say that my walk with the Lord is stronger than it’s been ever and I am grateful for the amazing people I do have in my life that the Lord has blessed me with…  People who truly care, who love and pray for me, who walk through this hard life by my side holding my hand, but also who lovingly call me out when I need it!  I am so grateful for this life that I have and I love that Jesus meets us in these weak moments.  I wish everyone could know the true LOVE of my Savior because because His love knows no bounds!

Thank you, Lord Jesus, that you love me all the time…  the good days, the bad, and the in between and when I least deserve it!  Thank you for dying such a brutal death in my place for these awful sins we commit…  Sins of the flesh and my unloving and unbecoming heart.  Speak to me, Lord, and if there is anything that does not honor you, let me hear Your voice!  Thank you for the sweet whisper that my actions were not honoring you with my peeved and resentful heart a few ago.  I want to see people as You see them and I thank you for the forgiveness you so graciously give to me daily.  I know that You are greater than these trials and You use these things to make us more dependent upon You!

I just realized this may have made no sense to anyone but me but it was definitely therapeutic to spill my thoughts and my heart!  :)